Lesson 21
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Last week we spoke about handing not just your problems – but your WHOLE LIFE over to God. Jim and I did that several years ago, at a time in our lives when we had come to an impasse: we had done everything physically possible to salvage our situation, there was no other person who could help us, and finally we were at that stage where there was no-one else to turn to except God.

Now there are two ways to look at this; were we forced to hand it all up to God, or were we LED TO HAND OUR LIVES OVER? Looking back on Lesson 13 where we talked of the Initiate in the maze whose task it is to make their way back to God, it would seem that this is the ULTIMATE choice.

In Lesson 7 there is a statement, ‘Our God-given free will can be a blessing or a curse. It should be used in full awareness – “I choose to exercise my free will and I accept full responsibility for the decisions I make.” By tuning into the Universal Mind of God and co-operating with It, all your decisions will be the right ones, at the right time and in the right place’.


We were in about the fourth year of our Spiritual development, trying to keep focused and positive, trusting in the unseen and following in faith – but it wasn’t easy at times! All the while we were being led on by the promise of our healing centre coming into being here at Eden – which seemed an impossible dream, but we trusted that to God NOTHING is impossible. There were times when we wondered, “Is this all just our imagination? Are we stupid to keep ploughing all our assets into this project – with no real knowing where it is leading and how it is going to end?” Then just as we needed it, along came a wonderful gift which showed us that we had not taken one step wrongly and that we were right on track.

It all came about through a lady who was attending our classes. She asked if we would be interested in some old esoteric books for our library – of course we said, “Yes please!” -  “Alright, when I get round to cleaning out my cupboard, they’re yours.”

These promises were repeated every week of the course, but by the end of it she still had not got round to cleaning out the cupboard – “but I will.”

In our break time I was straightening up our meeting-room and noted that now all our loan books were back that there was no more room on our shelves. If we did get the books, where could we put them?

The weeks went by and no sign of Lesley with the books. One night at a learning group one of the young women announced that she was going up North to live and that she planned to give away all her furniture. She put the offer out to the people in the room to speak up if they wanted anything, and I found myself asking if there was a bookcase. Yes! We were given a few weeks in which to collect it.

We promptly forgot! Then one Sunday she rang and said, “If you don’t come and collect this today it’s being put out for the rubbish collection because I’m leaving tomorrow.” ‘By coincidence’ Jim had borrowed the trailer from work that weekend to do some garden jobs, and also our son-in-law had just called round, so off went the men to collect the bookcase.

As I waited for them to come back it suddenly occurred to me that I had not asked how big this bookcase was – if it was a 6’ one, then there was just nowhere to put it. When it arrived it was 4’ and slotted neatly in under the wall shelves of our library – as if the space had been waiting for it. Which, of course, it had!

So now we had the shelves, and sure enough, the following week Lesley arrived with all the books. As she handed the three big boxes in she pointed out an orange envelope on top. “Those are some old chanellings that I threw in for your interest.”

I was itching to see what she had brought, but we had overseas visitors at the time and could not get the chance for another few days. Then one afternoon everyone was doing their own thing for an hour, so I slipped off to the bedroom to have a look at the books.

However, I was drawn to the big envelope instead – I didn’t have much time to read right now. When I opened it, it contained two old manuscripts! Typed out on the old, thin paper, complete with alterations and spelling mistakes. The first one was written by Godfrey Ray King, called ‘The Thirty-three Discourses’. It explained that this group had been meeting regularly for thirty years, and then one night during 1932 in Godfrey’s house a light appeared in the corner of the room. The thirty-three Discourses contained in this book were dictated over a Visible Light and sound Ray by Ascended Master Saint Germaine and those other Ascended Masters directly concerned with this activity. The sound of His Voice was physically audible to everyone in the room. At times His Visible, Tangible Presence also stood within the room, when He radiated the Power and Energy of the Light Rays to accomplish special work. They gave the group these thirty-three lessons – hence the name of the book. THAT sounded interesting, I would have to get back to that one!

The next book had ‘Sun Publishers, New York, 1940’ printed on the first page. It was entitled, ‘The Impersonal Life’ by Joseph Benner.

It begins in September 1916 with a prayer to God:

Dear God,

Thou All-Provider, Thou who are my Inexhaustible Supply, my Sufficiency in all things.

I hereby covenant with Thee to devote my life and everything Thou givest me in Thy Service; to work henceforth only for Thee, letting Thee guide and direct me in all things.

In return I ask only for Wisdom and Understanding that I may KNOW Thy Will and Thy Meanings when Thou speakest, and for the Strength never to doubt Thy unfailing Supply and Support.

Then eight months later, after having been supplied with the contents of the book, a second prayer asking for God to supply the means for this message to be given out to the world.

I read that entire book in two days! It confirmed every step that we had taken, and in the last chapter brought us up to where we were now at, ENCOURAGING us to keep going, now knowing that NONE of this was imagination or wishful thinking.

Through the experiences Jim and I have had, and the contact that we have with God I know these writings to be the TRUTH. They echo all the writings we have received and they compliment all the lessons you have worked on. I knew that this book had come into my hands in order for the information to be passed along to all those who still were seeking after the first 12 lessons, whose appetites were whetted, and who asked for MORE – YOURSELVES.

Here then are the first two sections from The Impersonal Life, which is now available in print from DeVorss Publishers in America.



  I AM

To you who read, I speak.

To you, who, through long years and much running to and fro, have been eagerly seeking, in books and teachings, in philosophy and religion, for you know not what – Truth, Happiness, Freedom, God.

To you whose Soul is weary and discouraged and almost destitute of hope;

To you, who many times have obtained a glimpse of that ‘Truth’, only to find, when you followed and tried to reach it, that it disappeared in the beyond, and was but the mirage of the desert.

To you, who thought you had found it in some great teacher, who was perhaps the acknowledged head of some Society, Fraternity or Religion, and who appeared to you to be a ‘Master’, so marvellous was the wisdom he taught and the works he performed – only to awaken later to the realization that the ‘Master’ was but a human personality, with faults and weaknesses, and secret sins, the same as you, even though that personality may have been a channel through which were voiced many beautiful teachings, which seemed to you the highest ‘Truth’.

And here you are, Soul aweary and ahungered, and not knowing where to turn –

To you, I AM come.

Likewise to you, who have begun to feel the presence of that ‘Truth’ within your Soul, and seek the confirmation of that which of late has been vaguely struggling for living expression within;

(That was me!)

Yes, to all you who hunger for the true ‘Bread of Life’, I AM come.

Are you ready to partake?

If so, then arouse yourself. Sit up. Still your human mind and follow closely MY WORD herein spoken. Or you will turn away disappointed once more, with the aching hunger still in your heart.


Who am I? –

I, Who speak with such seeming knowledge and authority?


I am You, that part of you who IS and KNOWS;


And always knew, and always was.

Yes, I AM You, Your SELF: that part of you who says I AM and is I AM:

That transcendent, innermost part of you which quickens within as you read, which responds to this My Word, which perceives Its Truth, which recognizes all Truth and discards all error wherever found. Not that part which has been feeding on error all these years.

For I AM your real Teacher, the only real one you will ever, ever know, and the only Master.

I, your Divine SELF.

I, the I AM of you, bring to you this My Message, My Living Word, as I have brought to you everything in life, be it book or ‘Master’, to teach you that I, and I alone, your own True Self, AM the Teacher for you, the only Teacher and the only God, Who is and always has been providing you not only with the Bread and Wine of Life, but with all things needed for your physical, mental and spiritual growth and sustenance.

Therefore that which appeals to YOU, as you read, is MY Message, spoken to your outer human consciousness from within, and is but a confirmation of that which the I AM of you always knew within, but had not yet translated in definite, tangible terms to your outer consciousness.

Likewise, all that ever appealed to You, coming from some outward expression, was but the confirmation of My Word already spoken within. The outward expression was the avenue or means I chose at the time through which to reach and impress your human or self consciousness.

(That was precisely the way WE learned – we got the information from Spirit first, then the books came along to CONFIRM. Not to INFLUENCE as happens in so many cases).

I AM not your human mind, nor its child, the intellect. They are but the expression of your Being, as you are the expression of My Being; they are but the phases of your human personality, as You are a phase of My Divine Impersonality.

Weigh and study carefully these words.

Rise up and free yourself now and for always from the domination of your personality, with its self-inflated and self-glorifying mind and intellect.

For your mind henceforth must be Your servant, and the intellect your slave, if My Word is to penetrate to your Soul consciousness.

I AM come now to your Soul consciousness, which I have quickened expressly in preparation for the reception of My Word.

Now, if you are strong enough to bear it;

If you can put aside all your private personal fancies, beliefs and opinions, which are but the rubbish you have gathered from the dumping grounds of others;

(My underlining – that is so VITAL for us to realise.)

If you are strong enough to cast them all away:

Then My Word will be to you a source of endless Joy and Blessing.

Be prepared to have this personality of yours doubt My Word as you read It all along the way;

For its very life is threatened, and it knows it cannot live and thrive and longer dominate your thinking, your feelings, your going and coming as of old – if you take My Word into your heart and permit It there to abide.

Yes, I AM come to you now.

To make you conscious of My Presence;

For I have likewise prepared your human mind so that it can, in a measure, comprehend the meaning of ME.

I have been with you always, but you did not know it.

I have purposely led you through the Wilderness of books and teachings, of religions and philosophies, keeping ever before your Soul’s eye the vision of the Promised Land.

Feeding you with the manna of the Desert, that you might remember and value and long for the Bread of the Spirit.

Now I have brought you to the river Jordan that separates you from your Divine Heritage.

Now the time has come for you consciously to know Me; the time has come for you to cross over into Canaan, the land of Milk and Honey.

Are you ready?

Do you want to go?

(And I sat up in my chair and mentally said YES, to both of those questions)

Then follow this My Word, which is the Ark of My Covenant, and you shall go over dry-shod.



Now, in order that you may learn to know Me, so that you can be sure it is I, your own True Self Who speak these words, you must first learn to Be Still, to quiet your human mind and body and all their activities, so that you no longer are conscious of them.

You may not yet be able to do this.

But I will teach you how, if you really want to know Me, and are willing to prove it by trusting Me and obeying Me in all that I now shall call upon you to do.


Try to imagine the ‘I’ who speaks throughout these pages as being your Higher or Divine Self, addressing and counselling your human mind and intellect, which you will consider for the moment as being a separate personality. Your human mind is so constituted that it cannot accept anything which does not conform with what it has previously experienced or learned, and which its intellect does not consider reasonable. Therefore, in addressing to, You are using such terms and expressions as will most clearly explain to your intellect the truths it must understand before the mind can awaken to the consciousness of your meaning.

The fact is, this ‘I’ is yourself, your Real Self. Your human mind has heretofore been so engrossed with the task of supplying its intellect and body with all manner of selfish indulgences, that it has never had time to get acquainted with the Real You, it’s true Lord and Master. You have been so interested in and affected by the pleasures and sufferings of your body and intellect, that you have almost come to believe You are your intellect and body, and thus you have nearly forgotten Me, your Divine Self.

I AM not your intellect and body, and this Message is to teach you that You and I are One. The words I herein speak, and the main burden of these instructions, is to awaken your consciousness to this great fact.

You cannot awaken to this fact until you can get away from the consciousness of this body and intellect, which so long have held you enslaved. You must feel Me within, before you can know I AM there.

Now, in order that you can become wholly oblivious of your mind and its thoughts and your body and its sensations, so that you can feel Me within, it is necessary that you studiously obey these My instructions.

Sit quietly in a relaxed position, and, when wholly at ease, let your mind take in the significance of these words:

“Be still!  -  and KNOW  -  I AM,  -  God.”

Without thinking, allow this, My Divine Command, to penetrate deep into your Soul. Let whatever impressions that come to your mind enter at will – without effort or interference on your part. Note carefully their import, for it is I within through these impressions, instructing you. Then, when somewhat of their vital significance begins to dawn upon your consciousness, speak these My Words slowly, imperatively, to every cell of your body, to every faculty of your mind, with all the conscious power you possess:

Be still!  -  and KNOW,  -  I AM,  -  God.”

Speak them just as they are herein written, trying to realise that the God of you commands and demands of your mortal self implicit obedience.

Study them; search out their hidden potency.

Brood over them; carry them with you into your work, whatever it be. Make them the vital, dominating factor in your work, in all your creative thoughts.

Say them a thousand times a day.

Until you have discovered all My innermost meaning;

Until every cell of your body thrills in joyful response to the command,
”Be still,” and instantly obeys,

And every vagrant thought hovering around your mind hies itself off into nothingness.

Then, as the Words reverberate through the caverns of your now empty being;

Then, as the Sun of Know-ing begins to rise on the horizon of your consciousness;

Then, will you feel the swell of a wondrous strange Breath filling you to the extreme of all your mortal members, causing your senses almost to burst with the ecstasy of it; then, will there come surge after surge of a mighty, resistless Power rising within you, lifting you almost off the earth; then, will you feel within the Glory, the Holiness, the Majesty of My Presence:

And then, then you will KNOW, I AM GOD.

You – when you have felt Me thus in such moments within, when you have tasted of My Power, harkened to My Wisdom, and know the ecstasy of My all-embracing Love – no disease can touch, no circumstance can weaken, no enemy can conquer you. For now you KNOW I AM WITHIN, and you always hereafter will turn to Me in your need, putting all your trust in Me and allowing Me to manifest My Will.

You, when you turn thus to Me, will always find Me an unfailing and ever-present help in time of need; for I will so fill you with a Realization of My Presence and of My Power, that you need only Be Still and allow Me to do whatever you want done – heal your ills or those of others, illumine your mind so you can see with My Eyes the Truth you seek, or perform perfectly the tasks which before seemed almost impossible of accomplishment.

This Knowledge, the Realization, will not come at once. It may not come for years. It may come tomorrow.

It depends upon no one but You:

Not upon your personality, with its human desires and human understanding;

But upon the I AM of you – God within.

Who is it that causes the bud to open into the blossom?

Who causes the chick to burst its shell?

Who decides the day and the hour?

It is the conscious, natural act of the Intelligence within, My Intelligence, directed by My Will, bringing to fruition My Idea and expressing it in the blossom and in the chick.

But did the blossom and the chick have anything to do with it?

No, only as they submitted or united their will with Mine and allowed Me and My Wisdom to determine the hour and the ripeness for action, and then only as they obeyed the impulse of My Will to make the effort, could they step forth into the New Life.

You may, with your personality, try a thousand times a thousand times to burst through the shell of your human consciousness.

It will result only, if at all, in a breaking down of the doors I have provided between the world of tangible forms and the realm of intangible dreams; and the door being open, you then no longer can keep out intruders from your private domain, without much trouble and suffering.

But even through such suffering you may gain the strength you lack and the wisdom needed to know that, not until you yield up all desire for knowledge, for goodness, yes, for union with Me, to benefit self, can you unfold your petals showing first the perfect Beauty of My Divine Nature, and throw off the shell of your human personality and step forth into the glorious Light of My Heavenly Kingdom.

Therefore I give you these directions now, at the beginning, that you may be learning how to recognise Me.

For I here promise you, if you follow and strive earnestly to comprehend and obey My instructions herein given, you shall very soon know Me, and I will give you to comprehend all of My Word wherever written – in book or teaching, in Nature, in your fellow man.

If there is much in what herein is written that seems contradictory, seek out My real meaning before discarding it.

Do not leave a single paragraph, or any one thought in it, until all that is suggested becomes clear.

But in all your seeking and all your striving, let it be with faith and trust in Me, your True Self within, and without being anxious about results; for the results are all in My keeping, and I will take care of them. Your doubts and your anxiety are but of the personality, and if allowed to persist will lead only to failure and disappointment.



Now you are all a little further along the path than a beginner – your first twelve meditations were telling you that God is within, and even if your intellect didn’t pick that up, your subconscious did. You have all been working on the release of judgement, the letting go, the forgiving. You have some understanding of what is happening to you physically as this takes place, and you have been working with the Light. YOU HAVE A HEAD START!

It is mentioned in The Impersonal Life how we MUST focus on God to receive the Truth; we learned a VERY graphic lesson around that which is described in full in my second book, ‘The God Light’. Chapter 4, ‘The Truth, The Whole Truth and Nothing but the Truth’ is a must-read for all those who are trying to wade their way through the initial misconceptions that we all experience in the early encounters with Spirit.

Another ‘gem’ that came to me that week was the following (author unknown):




1.   YOU WILL RECEIVE A BODY. You may like it or hate it,
      but it will be yours for the entire period this time round.

2.   YOU WILL LEARN LESSONS. You are enrolled in a full-time informal school called life. Each day in this school you will have the opportunity to learn. You may like the lessons or think them irrelevant or stupid.

3.   THERE ARE NO MISTAKES ONLY LESSONS. Growth is a process of trial and error; experimentation. The ‘failed’ experiments are as much a part of the process as the experiment that works.

4.   A LESSON IS REPEATED UNTIL IT IS LEARNED. A lesson will be presented to you in various forms until you have learned it. When you have, you can go on to the next lesson.

5.   THE LEARNING OF LESSONS DOES NOT END. There is no part of the school of Life that does not contain its lessons. If you are alive, there are lessons to be learned.

6.   ‘THERE’ IS NO BETTER THAN ‘HERE’. When your ‘there’ has become a ‘here’, you will simply obtain another ‘there’ that will again look better than ‘here’.

7.   OTHERS ARE MERELY MIRRORS OF YOU. You cannot love or hate something about another person unless it reflects something you love or hate about yourself.

8.   WHAT YOU MAKE OF YOUR LIFE IS UP TO YOU. You have all the tools and resources you need. What you do with them is up to you. The choice is yours.

9.   YOUR ANSWER LIE INSIDE YOU. All you need do is look, listen and trust.



Those are excellent rules for being human, but when you make the choice to become Divine you can delete five of the rules:

Number 3 – there will be no more mistakes.

Number 4 – no more repeats.

Number 6 – you won’t want to be anywhere else BUT here - it will be so good!

Number 10 – You will never forget again.

Therefore number 11 – does not apply.

As for number 7 – you will mirror ONLY LOVE.